Arl115

Trapped Within Myself Arl115

Being a young naïve girl with low self-esteem thinking no one understood her not even herself. Living in a house or world with a total of seven siblings and thinking she was not good enough. Looking back on pass events supernaturally and naturally changed my course of life. Always feeling to be love I had to give up something of myself but never really receiving the true love that couldn't or should I say wasn't found until I met Jesus. Always aiming to please others even when it meant doing things that were wrong and sometimes life threatening. Caught up in two worlds not knowing my purpose in life and that she did matter. Loved people but was afraid to allow them to get too close. Felt sheltered, unloved, left over for someone who I'd thought could truly love me. Taking abuse, neglect and abandonment in my soul. Being a young lady found adventure in belonging or sleeping around in hopes to find love. Crying profusely at night, on the prey to seek that which was lost but never truly being satisfied or at peace. Suffered a lot of bitterness, anger and shame to be called a woman, child or whatever. Sought out things which wasn't in my best interest but to feel love is what I sought the most. Founding my true self through perseverance and seeking to be a better person is what kept me all those years. When God met me where I was, my whole life changed. I am yet being transformed into his image and likeness through the things I suffered and endured throughout my lifetime. Have faith and trust God because your outcome is exceedingly greater than you can ever imagine. Thank you all for taking the time to read my story!!!!